Inside the Room of My Soul

My Soul is Communicative

I am quite expressive and thoughtful. I see the world in a way that others are blind to. I am not a very grounded person. I prefer dreams to reality. For me, it's all about possibilities. I believe that people see you as larger than life and important. While this is true, they also think I am a bit full of yourself. My near future is all about change, but in very small steps. The end of the journey looks far, but it's much closer than I realize. For me, love is all about caring and comfort. I couldn't fall in love with someone I didn't trust.

my right.

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE..
one old love she can imagine going back to..
and one who reminds her how far she has come..

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ..
enough money within her control to move out
and rent a place of her own even if she never wants to or needs to..

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ..
something perfect to wear if the employer or date of her dreams wants to see her in an hour..

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ..
a youth she's content to leave behind..

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ..
a past juicy enough that she's looking forward to retelling it in her old age..

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ..
a set of screwdrivers, a cordless drill, and a black lace bra..

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ..
one friend who always makes her laugh..
and one who lets her cry..

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ..
a good piece of furniture not previously owned by anyone else in her family..

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ..
eight matching plates, wine glasses with stems, and a recipe for a meal that will make her guests feel honored..

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ..
a feeling of control over her destiny..

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW..
..how to fall in love without losing herself..

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW..
..how to quit a job, break up with a lover,
and confront a friend without ruining the friendship..

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW..
..when to try harder..
and when to walk away..

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW..
..that she can't change the length of her calves, the width of her hips, or the nature of her parents..

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW..
..that her childhood may not have been perfect..
but its over..

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW..
..what she would and wouldn't do for love or more..

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW..
..how to live alone..
even if she doesn't like it...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW..
..whom she can trust, whom she can't, and why she shouldn't take it personally..

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW..
..where to go..
be it to her best friend's kitchen table..
or a charming inn in the woods..
when her soul needs soothing..

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW..
..what she can and can't accomplish in a day..
a month..and a year..

**i believe in every woman’s right to be an AGENT
for change by day and a GODDESS by night...

a must read.

Source: The Manila Times
By: Mark J. Macapagal

In your life, you'll make note of a lot of
people. Ones with whom you shared something
special, ones who will always mean something.
There's the one you first kissed, the one you
first loved, the one you lost your virginity to,
the one you put on a pedestal, the one you're
with... and the one that got away.

Who is the one that got away? I guess it's that
person with who everything was great, everything
was perfect, but the timing was just wrong.
There was no fault in the person, there was no
flaw in the chemistry, but the cards just didn't
fall the right way, I suppose.

I believe in the fact that ending up with
someone, finding a longtime partner that is,
does not lie merely in the other person. I can
actually argue that an equal part, or maybe even
the greater part, has to do with the matter of
timing. It has to do with you being ready to
settle down and commit to someone in a way that
goes beyond the little niceties of giddy romance.

How often have you gone through it without even
realizing it? When you're not ready to commit in
that mature manner, it doesn't matter who you're
with, it just doesn't work. Small problems
become big; inconsequentials become dealbreakers
simply because you're not ready and it shows.
It's not that you and the person you're with are
no good; it's just that it's not yet right, and
little things become the flashpoint of that fact.

Then one day you're ready. You really are. And
when this happens you'll be ready to settle down
with someone. He or she may not be the most
perfect, they might not be the brightest star of
romance to ever have burned in your life, but
it'll work because you're ready. It'll work
because it's the right time and you'll make it
work. And it'll make sense, it really will.

So that day comes when you're finally making
sense of things, and you find yourself to be a
different person. Things are different, your
approach is different, you finally understand
who you are and what you want, and you've become
ready because the time has truly arrived. And
mind you, there's no telling when this day will
come. Hopefully you're single but you could be
in a long-term relationship, you could be
married with three kids, it doesn't matter. All
you know is that you've changed, and for some
reason, the one that got away, is the first
person you think about.

You'll think about them because you'll
wonder, "What if they were here today?" You'll
wonder, "What if we were together now, with me
as I am and not as I was?" That's what the one
that got away is. The biggest "What if?" you'll
have in your life.

If you're married, you'll just have to accept
the fact that the one that got away, got away.
Believe me, no matter how fairy tale you think
your marriage is, this can happen to the best of
us. But hopefully you're mature enough to
realize that you're already with the one you're
with and this is just another test of your
commitment, one which will just strengthen your
marriage when you get past it. Sure, you'll
think about him/her every so often, but it's
alright. It's never nice to live with a "might
have been," but it happens.

Maybe the one that got away is the one who's
already married. In which case it's the same
thing. You just have to accept and know that
your memories of that person will probably bring
a nice little smile to your lips in the future
when you're old and gray and reminiscing.

But if neither of that is the case, then it's
different. What do you do if it's not yet too
late? Simple...find him, find her. Because the
very existence of a "one that got away" means
that you'll always wonder, what if you got that
one?

Ask him out to coffee, ask her out to a movie,
it doesn't matter if you've dropped in from out
of nowhere. You'd be surprised, you just might
be "the one that got away" as well for the
person who is your "the one that got away."

You might drop in from out of nowhere and it
won't make a difference. If the timing is
finally right, it'll all just fall into place
somehow and you know, I'm thinking, it would be
a great feeling, in the end, to be able to say
to someone, "Hey you, you're the one that ALMOST
got away."

bitchology.

pawang katotohanan lamang.

1. "Kung hindi mo mahal ang isang tao, wag ka nang magpakita ng motibo para mahalin ka nya.."

2. "Huwag mong bitawan ang bagay na hindi mo kayang makitang hawak ng iba.."

3. "Huwag mong hawakan kung alam mong bibitawan mo lang."

4. "Huwag na huwag ka hahawak kapag alam mong may hawak ka na."

5. "Parang elevator lang yan eh, bakit mo pagsisiksikan ung sarili mo kung walang pwesto para sayo. Eh meron naman hagdan, ayaw mo lang pansinin."

6. "Kung maghihintay ka nang lalandi sayo, walang mangyayari sa buhay mo.. Dapat lumandi ka din."

7. "Pag may mahal ka at ayaw sayo, hayaan mo. Malay mo sa mga susunod na araw ayaw mo na din sa kanya, naunahan ka lang."

8. "Hiwalayan na kung di ka na masaya. Walang gamot sa tanga kundi pagkukusa."

9. "Pag hindi ka mahal ng mahal mo wag ka magreklamo. Kasi may mga tao rin na di mo mahal pero mahal ka.. Kaya quits lang."

10. "Kung dalawa ang mahal mo, piliin mo yung pangalawa. Kasi hindi ka naman magmamahal ng iba kung mahal mo talaga yung una."

11. "Hindi porke't madalas mong ka-chat, kausap sa telepono, kasama sa mga lakad o ka-text ng wantusawa eh may gusto sayo at magkakatuluyan kayo. Meron lang talagang mga taong sadyang friendly, sweet, flirt, malandi, pa-fall o paasa."

12. "Huwag magmadali sa babae o lalaki. Tatlo, lima, sampung taon, mag-iiba ang pamantayan mo at maiisip mong hindi pala tamang pumili ng kapareha dahil lang maganda o nakakalibog ito. Totong mas mahalaga ang kalooban ng tao higit sa anuman. Sa paglipas ng panahon, maging ang mga crush ng bayan nagmumukha ding pandesal, maniwala ka."

13. "Minsan kahit ikaw ang nakaschedule, kailangan mo pa rin maghintay, kasi hindi ikaw ang priority."

14. "Mahirap pumapel sa buhay ng tao. Lalo na kung hindi ikaw yung bida sa script na pinili nya."

15. "Alam mo ba kung gaano kalayo ang pagitan ng dalawang tao pag nagtalikuran na sila? Kailangan mong libutin ang buong mundo para lang makaharap ulit ang taong tinalikuran mo."

16. "Mas mabuting mabigo sa paggawa ng isang bagay kesa magtagumpay sa paggawa ng wala"

17. "Hindi lahat ng kaya mong intindihin ay katotohan, at hindi lahat ng hindi mo kayang intindihin ay kasinungalingan"

18. "Kung nagmahal ka ng taong di dapat at nasaktan ka, wag mong sisihin ang puso mo. Tumitibok lng yan para mag-supply ng dugo sa katawan mo. Ngayon, kung magaling ka sa anatomy at ang sisisihin mo naman ay ang hypothalamus mo na kumokontrol ng emotions mo, mali ka pa rin! Bakit? Utang na loob! Wag mong isisi sa body organs mo ang mga sama ng loob mo sa buhay! Tandaan mo: magiging masaya ka lang kung matututo kang tanggapin na hindi ang puso, utak, atay o bituka mo ang may kasalanan sa lahat ng nangyari sayo, kundi IKAW mismo!"

19. "Ang pag-ibig parang imburnal... nakakata kot mahulog... at kapag nahulog ka, it's either by accident or talagang tanga ka.."

live. laugh. love. ♥♥♥

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that
wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You
will have your heart broken probably more than once and
it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so
remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight
with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things
an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast,
and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too
many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never
been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset
is a minute of happiness you'll never get back. Don't be
afraid that your life will end, be afraid that it will never begin.

advice about men by OPRAH.

If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.

If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.

Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.

Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.

Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that’s not meant to be.

Slower is better.

Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.

If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can’t "be friends". A friend wouldn’t mistreat a friend.

Don’t settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.

Don’t stay because you think "it will get better."? You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.

The only person you can control in a relationship is you.

Avoid men who’ve got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn’t marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently?

Always have your own set of friends separate from his.

Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you.

If something bothers you, speak up.

Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later.

You cannot change a man’s behavior. Change comes from within.

Don’t EVER make him feel he is more important than you are... even if he has more education or in a better job.

Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man, nothing more nothing less.

Never let a man define who you are.

Never borrow someone else's man. If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.

A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.

All men are NOT dogs.

You should not be the one doing all the bending...compromise is two way street.

You need time to heal between relationships...there is nothing cute about baggage... deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship.

You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you... a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals... look for someone complimentary...not supplementary.

Dating is fun... even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right.

Make him miss you sometimes... when a man always know where you are, and you're always readily available to him - he takes it for granted.

Never move into his mother's house.

Never co-sign for a man.

Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need.

Keep him in your radar but get to know others.

i live in the present.

I take things one day at a time.
And it turns out, that's a pretty great way to live.

I'm not consumed by the past, and I'm not obsessed with the future.
I live in the now, and I enjoy each moment.

While most people don't live in the present enough,
I make sure I don't live in it too much.
It would be a mistake to forget my past or neglect to plan for my future.

inspirational.

In honor of women's history month and in memory of Erma Bombeck who lost her fight with cancer. Here is an 'angel' sent to watch over you. Pass this on to five women that you want watched over. If you don't know five women to pass this on to, one will do just fine.

IF I HAD MY LIFE TO LIVE OVER - by Erma Bombeck
(written after she found out she was suffering from cancer)


I would have gone to bed when I was sick instead of pretending the earth would go into a holding pattern if I weren't there for the day.

I would have burned the pink candle sculpted like a rose before it melted in storage.

I would have talked less and listened more.

I would have invited friends over to dinner even if the carpet was stained, or the sofa faded.

I would have eaten the popcorn in the 'good' living room and worried much less about the dirt when someone wanted to light a fire in the fireplace.

I would have taken the time to listen to my grandfather ramble about his youth.

I would have shared more of the responsibility carried by my husband.

I would never have insisted the car windows be rolled up on a summer day because my hair had just been teased and sprayed.

I would have sat on the lawn with my grass stains.

I would have cried and laughed less while watching television and more while watching life.

I would never have bought anything just because it was practical, wouldn't show soil, or was guaranteed to last a lifetime.

Instead of wishing away nine months of pregnancy, I'd have cherished every moment and realized that the wonderment growing inside me was the only chance in life to assist God in a miracle.

When my kids kissed me impetuously, I would never have said, 'Later. Now go get washed up for dinner.' There would have been more 'I love you's' More 'I'm sorry's.'

But mostly, given another shot at life, I would seize every minute...look at it and really see it . Live it and never give it back. STOP SWEATING THE SMALL STUFF!!!

Don't worry about who doesn't like you, who has more, or who's doing what. Instead, let's cherish the relationships we have with those who do love us. Let's think about what God HAS blessed us with and what we are doing each day to promote ourselves mentally, physically, emotionally. I hope you have a blessed day.

between black and white.

There’s always one person we fail to neglect most of the time, we don’t find them intriguing enough, or interesting enough to spend time with them and fully understand and appreciate them for who they are… take some time to and spend it with you… yes you, get to know your self better, and never forget to stay in touch with the inner you to remain at inner peace and harmony for always and find the secret to the essence of every person… their soul.

serenity.

trust me its paradise this is where the hungry comes to feed for mine is the generation that circles the globe in search of something we haven't tried before so never refuse an invitation never resist the unfamiliar never fail to be polite and never outstay your welcome just keep your mind open and suck in the experience and if it hurts,
you know what, it was probably worth it you hope and you dream but you never believe that something's gonna happen for you,
not like it does in the movies and when it actually does, you expect it to feel different, more viseral, more real i still believe in paradise and now at least i know its not some place you can look for cause its not where you go,
its how you feel for a moment in your life and when you find that moment, it will last forever!

I was waiting for it to hit me.

Prayer for Nurses.

Today I offer myself to You, Lord, as You have gifted
And chosen me to serve those who are ill.
Bless my hands that I may be able to share your healing touch.

Bless the medicines and instruments in my hands.
Bless my every action, every nursing intervention and medical procedure
that I will administer to the sick, that it may bring comfort, help alleviate
their pain, and be your instrument in healing them.

When i feel down because of fatigue and lack of sleep;
when my personal preoccupation, my own hurts and woundedness bother me;
when my presence and nursing skill are being mistrusted by those around me,
let you Spirit transform this into energy of love to give me
the strength and courage to go on faith. Help me to be serene especially when I am
at the bedside of patients who are in their most vulnerable moments.

Divine Master, I acknowledge the gift of service and love
inherent in my nursing vocation.
Increase in me the grace to be respectful of every patient
no matter who he/she may be, trusting that it is You
yourself who are placing him/her under my care.
Amen.

dear broken-heart.

this is dedicated to all those going through difficult matters of the heart!

"diary of a broken-heart", this was my planned title to a diary-of-sorts that i wanted to write when i was a broken-hearted once. i thought to myself, what if i write all of my feelings everyday in one whole year, then i'd be able to read it when i am healed, and see my journey from a new point of view, from denial to anger to bitterness to hope to healing (or whatever jumbled order you've experienced in your own love life) and maybe, it might be able to help future broken hearts out there.

but, i never get to writing it.

siguro dahil sa sobrang sakit, kapag naiisip kong magsulat, nananalo na lang yung kagustuhan kong magmukmok sa isang tabi. imbis na mag-effort pa ako na mag-isip at magpagod, ginusto ko na lang na wala na lang akong intindihin. hanggang sa lumipas ang mga weeks, months, i went through all kinds of emotions (na slightly nakakabaliw talaga yung iba ha!) until one day, i was okay.

having said all that, and having heard some of the most saddening break-up stories the past weeks, allow me to try to reconstruct a few of things i've learned in life, and love, that might help that broken heart of yours or of someone you know.

1. on advice.

when you're broken-hearted.. no advice said to you will make you feel better. none. as in wala. kahit ano walang effect kapag broken-hearted ka, the only thing that you think will make you feel better is if the one you love will say they love you too, but they won't. (in some cases, they won't ever, but in some, they won't just for this point in time.) hugs will comfort you, concerned text messages will make you smile, but no amount of advices will make you feel better...unless! unless you decide to let it make you feel better. Don't be pressured though to follow everyone's advice, kanya-kanya lang yan, of the one hundred cliche lines thrown at you at an attempt to make you feel better, most will not make you feel better (in fact, some will make you feel worse), but there will be a few major lines (not necessarily given by these closest to you, mind you) that will speak to you and touch your heart and soothe your soul. Those pieces of advice, you hold on to.

2. on prayer.

a broken-heart will make up some days so unbelievably hopeless and wanting to just stay in bed all day, some will eve go all out in saying they want to die ( but of course, you don't really wanna die, right?!) a broken-heart will wake up some days feeling somewhat rested and peaceful, but with a slight fear that they might encounter something that they will brick back all the pain. whatever mood the broken-heart wakes up in, one thing remains. its a broken heart, and this may sound cheesy and false to some. but there is only one thing that can heal all things broken. Our Lord and personal savior, Jesus Christ. when you deliverance. when your heart is shattered into a million pieces, still give thanks and ask that you may learn whatever life lesson it is that he wants you to learn. in both high and low, give thanks, because it is the one of the surest things in life that God only works for the good of those who love him.

3. on moving on.

don't be pressured! for some it takes weeks, months, or even years! of course, no one likes the pain of the broken heart brings. (its pain like no other! ouuuchy talaga grabe!) but, you have to go through it. go and let it out. cry before you slee, cry when you wake up, cry in the bathroom, cry in front of pc, cry while eating dinner, cry to your friends, and even, i do cry with my father and sisters break it all down (so much relieved when i did that), lock yourself in the room, stay in bed all day, don't talk to anyone for hours, make senti all you want, do it all. don't let anybody stop you. (but don't let get in the way of school, work or the things you have to do either! okay? okay.) feel all those yucky, disgusting, heart-shattering feelings, curl it all up into this unbelievably sad ball, and one day, when you're ready throw it out all in the window. it will happen for you. i know you feel it won't, that the day you'll be okay will never come, but it will, just like me. have faith it will.

let me stop at this third point and end by saying that i've felt all those feelings of hopelessness and worthlessness that you might be feeling right now. and, honestly, so have thousands, and millions of other people around you. it sucks. it really does. but hey! nobody said that it would be easy, but nobody said that you do it alone.

all this i share with pure sincerity from the bottom of my happy heart, to your soon-to-be a happy heart! :)

"HEAVEN"

a price to pay
for the sins and the faults
for hurts that has been caused
for a life almost lost

formerly considered dead
gone and alone
far... yet still within reach
fading... just fading

thrown over the shoulder
by those whom i thought will always be present
forgotten like a bad memory,
something never held dearly

i sought... i fought...
just when the end was near
the road just kept on goin
on... and on... and on...
my legs can only go so far
but i sought... i fought...

finally... i tripped
reaching the limits of humanity
i take one last breath
one last look
and there stands a figure
a silhouette that you know contains eternal beauty
Godly beauty...
i look at my dirty, bruised, and wounded self
and i look up to the face that looked down
a price to pay...
this is my prize...

reflection on a monday night.

Despite of being wasted from work this night, I reflected on LOVE and SPIRIT.

I think that love doesn't need to be discussed, it has its own voice and speaks for itself. The spiritual life is essentially to love. One doesn't love in order to do what is good or to protect someone. If we act that way, we are perceiving the other as a simple object, and we are seeing ourselves as wise and generous persons. This has nothing to do with love. To love is to be in communion with the other and to discover in that other the spark of God.

So I prayed...

Thy will be done, My Lord.
because you know the weakness in my heart,
and you assign me only the burden I can bear.
May you understand my love--because it is the only thing I have that is really mine, the only thing that I will be able to take with me into the next life.
Please allow it to be courageous and pure; please make it capable of surviving the snares of the world.
If pain must come, may it come quickly. Because I have a life to live. And I need to live it in the best way possible. If he has to make a choice, may he make it now. Then I will either wait for him or forget him.
Waiting is painful.
Forgetting is painful.
But not knowing which to do is the worst kind of suffering.

And so after I say a Prayer. When I tried to read the Bible, this was the first verse I read...

***Philippians 4:6-7***

Do not worry, do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your request to God. And the peace of God, which trancends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

I really know that God is sooo good to me that he answered my prayers at a snap of a finger. Thank You Our Father!

a beautiful PRAYER.

Dear God,

I have no idea where I am going.
I do not see the road ahead of me.
I cannot know for certain where it will end.
Nor do I really know myself...and the fact that I think that I am following Your will does not mean that I am actually doing so.
But I believe this:
I believe that the desire to please You does in fact please You.
I hope I have that desire in everything I do.
I hope I never persist in anything apart from that desire.
And I know that if I do this You will lead me by the right road, though I may know nothing about it at the time.
Therefore I will trust You always, for though I may be lost - and in the shadow of death - I will not be afraid, because I know You will never leave me to face my troubles all alone.

Someone will always be thankful for you.

Someone will always cherish
The warmth of your smile and
The happiness in your heart.
Someone wants to always be close enough
To care in every way and to treasure
Each and every day spent together.

Someone will always keep you lovingly
In mind
And will welcome every opportunity
To find you in happy thoughts.

Someone will always know that life
Is good because of you, and that tomorrow
Has a bright and shining hope that
Wouldn't be there if you weren't here today.
Someone will always try to find the words
To thank you for filling life with
Dreams come true and with beautiful memories.

Someone will always be thankful for you.

...And that someone
Will always be me.

Proud to be SE 14!

May 2-4,2008
6:00 P.M
Angels' Hills, Tagaytay



A new chapter of my life...

Before, Peejo invited me to join him to a retreat conducted by the Singles Apostolate of St.James but I refused coz of some personal reasons. After a 8 months, I finally realized that it was a God's calling...And I joined the retreat with my bestfriend Ia.

At first, I thought this retreat was like retreat conducted by schools. God let me understand every second of it, Why I'm there? What am I doing there? and What's my purpose? by seeing the Apostolates singing and dancing just to praise the Lord. I was very amazed by their sincerity and whole-hearted worships. This retreat made my relationship with God became closer, thinking of my spiritual growth. It made me realize that I'm so wonderfully made by Him, that everyone has boundless potential, that everyone needs Him, that I'm strong but not as superwoman, how to understand, to forgive, to give gratitude, to have contentment, to have wisdom, to LOVE, to be happy, when to let go and when to hold on and treasuring one's blessings. So many talks happened and it keeps inside of me, I know now that once in my life I encountered God, with others, and with myself. It's a deeper relationship and understanding with God. GLORY to HIM! I found a new family in Him. HALLELUJAH! Now, I can say that I had a wonderful experience, everytime. I had a very meaningful and wonderful retreat, I know this will just be a start of my journey and I know I'm with our Father all the time to back us up. I'm really new now Spiritually! and I want to share this feeling with everybody.

HERE I AM TO WORSHIP
HERE I AM TO BOW DOWN
HERE I AM TO SAY THAT YOU'RE MY GOD
YOU'RE ALTOGETHER LOVELY
ALTOGETHER WORTHY
ALTOGETHER WONDERFUL TO ME...

destiny.

alone, soaking wet under the rain
suddenly a glimpse of you occur in the dark
unexpectedly, you gave my dream a spark
knowing you is just so great
could this be fate?

an imperfectly perfect life
wishing to be your wife

suddenly she stepped in
my world horribly dimmed

why does it have to change so quickly?
i thought we we're happy?

i never saw that coming
i couldnt imagine you leaving

i remember all those laughs
i guess my all wasnt enough

i am the one for you honey
didnt you tell me you'd be my babies' daddy?

i believed in forever with you
but darn, you just broke my heart in two.

my bucket list.

i sooo wish i get to do these stuff before i hit the bucket:

1. bunjee jump in belgium.
2. sky dive.
   
3. get to the top of the Eiffel Tower.
4. walk along the famous lighted streets of Paris.
5. feel the sand of hawaii.
6. experience South Africa.
7. luxury cruise to jamaica, bahamas and caribbean.
8. sky diving.
9. experience the white water rafting in cagayan de oro.
10. explore the beautiful beaches in palawan.
11. yacht cruising in london.
12. a date with peejo in prague, czech republic.
13. snow boarding at lake tahoe. more to add...
    

a love story.

This is how it all started...It is really amazing how the Lord works behind the scene, how he puts two souls together. Peejo and I met in Self Rehabilitation Center at Talisay, Batangas. He's not my patient nor my friend to visit. He used to go to the same rehabilitation center where my cousin does but he's more ahead batch than him. When we had our first visitation there, that's the time we had the chance to introduce each other. He stayed in our "kubo" with the rest of my family and do all the talking and updates and making some stories and blah! blah! blah! ...Whole day had passed...we have to go home and say our goodbyes. My cousin's wife, Nhess, told me that Peejo has a crush on me (it was like love at first sight they say.) I had so many sweet words heard from him that Nhess told me and he even get my number to my cousin and started to text me and vise-versa.

After a week, my cousin had his 2 days weekend off from the facility and Peejo is the one who facilitates him. From there, Peejo started to make some moves. Whenever he had his off from the facility, he make sure that I'm included in his itinerary in his. Everytime his out of the facility, he didn't forget to visit me. So as time goes on...I have learned about so many things from him, I even had the chance to know him well, to be a witness of his full transformation and on how he dealt with his tasks and learning experience inside. And I am happy he was honest enough to share to me everything in his past...and I'm there to back him up through prayers. As time passes by, we became close and started to build mutual feelings and became special to each other.

A couple of weeks ago...I started seeking the Lord about Peejo and I, to show me a glimpse of, if he was the the one to whom I submit myself again, full of prayers have done and God is soooooooooo good! He answered all of it.

Until now, we're sharing our good and bad times together. We learned to count our blessings in everyday of our lives, look forward for every growing days together, i thank God for him -- there's not a day that I'm not amazed on how much love i can give and receive--there's not a day that I'm thankful that I have him in my life. So, to 87 more years together!

a day in the life of S.

apparently, i can't make time stop. life has to move forward and as it does i am constantly thankful for every day, i am constantly curious about people, and constantly in love with life. at this time and age when cynicism is overt, i try to laugh with my heart, love with my soul, and appreciate each simple thing life has to offer. i make things happen now!

INTERVIEW WITH GOD

I dreamed I had an interview with God.

"So you would like to interview me?" God asked.

"If you have the time" I said.

God smiled. "My time eternity."
"What questions do you have in mind for me?"

"What surprises you most about humankind?"

God answered...
"that they get bored with childhood, they rush to grow up, and then long to be children again."

" that they lose their health to make money...
and then lose their money to restore their health."

"That by thinking anxiously about the future, they forget the present, such that they live in neither the present nor the future."

"That they live as if they will never die, and die as though they had never lived."

God's hand took mine and we were silent for a while.

And then I asked...
"As a parent, what are some of life's lessons
you want your children to learn?"

"To learn they cannot make anyone love them . All they can do is let themselves be loved."

"To learn that it is not good to compare themselves to others."

"To learn to forgive by practicing forgiveness."

"To learn that it only takes a few seconds to open profound wounds in those they love, and it can take many years to heal them."

"To learn that a rich person is not one who has the most, but is one who needs the least."

"To learn that there are people who love them dearly, but simply have not yet learned how to express or show their feelings."

"To learn that two people can look at the same thing and see it differently."

"To learn that it is not enough that they forgive one another, but they must also forgive themselves."

"Thank You for your time," I said humbly

"Is there anything else
you would like your children to know?"

God smiled and said,
"Just know that I am here...always."

" A Treasure of a BOOK!"

ALCHEMIST

I found The Alchemist to be a wonderful tale on pursuing one's dreams. Coelho shows how easy it is to give up ever attaining one's dreams due to complacency - or not wanting to move out of one's comfort zone. "People are afraid to pursue their most important dreams, because they feel that they don't deserve them, or that they'll be unable to achieve them." Another endearing quote from the book, "There is only one thing that makes a dream impossible to achieve: the fear of failure." Yet Santiago does want to pursue his dream of finding his treasure and yes, at times we see and feel his fear, but along his journey, he has learned to listen to his heart and to trust what his heart teaches him.

"When a person really desires something all the universe conspires to help that person to realize his dream." Santiago is constantly tested along the way, yet he continues to listen to the murmurings of his heart, which are never wrong. Santiago learns about love along the way and helps others to face their fears as well. Coelho states, "And that's where the power of love comes in. Because when we love, we always strive to become better than we are."

Some may see this fable as contrite, or overworked or too new age for their tastes. I disagree and loved the messages that this book imparted, interwoven in the tale of the desert, The Alchemist, and Santiago. This book, I found, imparted to me numerous jewels of wisdom. I was captured and absorbed into the tale and found myself relating to the fears, but I completely understood the message of following one's dreams, listening to one's heart, trusting, loving and learning to let go of fear. "Listen to your heart. It knows all things, because it came from the Soul of the World, and it will one day return there. Wherever your heart is, that is where you'll find your treasure. Your heart is alive. Keep listening to what it has to say." The Alchemist imparts these words of wisdom to Santiago when Santiago begins to doubt and question.

"Everyone on earth has treasure that awaits him," his heart said. "We, people's hearts, seldom say much about those treasures, because people no longer want to go in search of them. We speak of them only to children. Later we simply let life proceed, in its own direction, toward its own fate. But, unfortunately, very few follow the path laid out for them - the path to their destinies, and to happiness. Most people see the world as a threatening place, and, because they do, the world turns out, indeed, to be a threatening place. So we, their hearts, speak more and more softly. We never stop speaking out . . "

This tale is inspiring, imaginative, and captivating. Santiago grows throughout the story and in the end, even though he was tested severely, he preserved and obtained his treasure by following his dream. We only limit ourselves - only we place limitations on us, as the universe conspires to aid us in all directions.

I highly recommend this book and since this is the second book I have read by Coelho, I now need to read them all! These words speak to my heart!

BY THE RIVER PIEDRA

"By the river piedra..." is a beautiful embodiment of the value that love has in one's life..it silently yet strongly emphasis the fact that all journeys in life begin with and end with love. Paulo Coelho in this novel has succeed in making understand that the language of tears is definitely heard by god-no matter in what form you worship him- masculine or feminine divinity. Its in a way a lesson for all to understand that " There is no greater service to mankind and humanity than to strive for your happiness and then with that happiness spread the colors of joy amidst the people. Perhaps a reading of dis book would change mindset of many around d world who believe that "love" is simply a passing phase and should be and must be sacrifice as and when society, family or circumstances demand. The protagonist of the story says." love can consign us to paradise or hell, but it always takes us somewhere". True enough for those who believe and incredulous for those who think.

***What Sheree Lee Ponciano Means***

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.
You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.
You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.
Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.
Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.
You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.
You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.





You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.
You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.
Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.





You are influential and persuasive. You tend to have a lot of power over people.
Generally, you use your powers for good. You excel at solving other people's problems.
Occasionally, you do get a little selfish and persuade people to do things that are only in your interest.

You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.
You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.
At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily.
You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind.
A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.

You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.

You have the classic "Type A" personality.


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