THERE IS NO GRAVITY, THE EARTH JUST SUCKS.

I know what it is I want from my life. I know how to go about achieving what I want. Even in the days when I was running around acting like a hoodlum I always took care not to go too far for fear of spending the rest of my life jail; that would have be a serious waste of life, mine.
Sometimes, when I talk to people, at work, at church, or just when I’m out and about I worry about what this world is coming to. I know that environment has a lot to do with who we are to become, I can’t help but think, though, about people who have achieved their goals in spite of where they grew up, or with whom.
Now I’m not saying that there are not some situations, from which, it is difficult to recover; what I’m saying is I’m astonished at the lack of hope that hear coming from almost everywhere. I’m still hearing things about “The end of days,” troubling. People seem to be using this as an excuse to not try to be more than what they are; for not trying to reach their full potential. I’ve said this before, and I’ll say it again: the only way the end of days will come is if we let it come. You can put it all on God, and / or prophecy if you like, but I know that it’s up to us all. We will let ourselves destroyed, God will weep, and the universe will go on with out us. Peace and Long Life.

The Search for Mr.Right

The other day one of my friends arrived at my house . She had seen the most amazing guy, she said. So I asked her, what was his name, how did they meet, what did they do, and how did she know he was so special?

Well, she, owed up, they hadn't actually 'met', she didn't know his name, nor had she talked to him...She explained that she was in town that afternoon when a car passed by. It came to a halt just by the road where she was walking. As she looked left and right to cross the street, her eyes locked with this guy, who was a driver of that. Smiles and meaningful looks were exchanged and that was it. But those seconds seemed minutes, and a connection was made, she believed.
Now she was a little sad, asking out loud; "Why didn't I stop that car, why didn't he get off and stop that car. This could have been the man of my dreams, and I let him go away...".
My friend isn't the type of person to get upset easily, or to fall in and out of love within a heartbeat. She has been through some rough break ups and is someone everybody really wants to be happy, because she is quite easily, one of the nicest people around. A real friend.
So my other friend and I did the only thing I could think of..., We went looking for him. We just knew more or less what this guy looked like and which car he drives on the day before. So we went to the place where she saw him, at around the same time, brought a picture of our friend, and showed it to every person that more or less fit the description she had given us. This was particularly difficult, as there happened to be many guys that are between 25 and 35 with beautiful eyes on this road. She couldn't tell how tall he was as he was obviously sitting down when she saw him. She didn't remember the colour of his hair, and the only other hint was that he had a dark coat on.....
We had the most hilarious afternoon, met many guys that would be happy to go out with our friend even after having seen only her picture. But they all admitted that they had not seen her before.

something to talk about

Communication. It’s the first thing we really learn in life. Funny thing is once we grow up, learn our words and really start talking; the harder it becomes to know what to say or how to ask for what we really need. t the end of the day there are some things you just can’t help but talk about And some things we say because we can’t be silent any longer. Some things are more than what you say. They’re what you do. Some things you say because there’s no other choice. Some things you keep to yourself. And not too often … but every now and the… some things simply speak for themselves.

SHAKE YOUR GROOVE THING

Remember when you were a kid and your biggest worry was, like, if you’d get a bike for your birthday, or if you get to eat cookies for breakfast. Being an adult? Totally overrated. I mean, seriously, don’t be fooled by all the hot shoes and the great sex and the no parents anywhere telling you to do. Adulthood is responsibility. Responsibility, it really does suck. Really, really sucks. Adults have to be places and do things and earn a living and pay the rent. And if you’re nurse like me, holding one’s life and taking care of it. Hello! Talk about responsibility. Kinda makes bikes and cookies look really, really good! doesn’t it?... The scariest part about responsibility- when you screw up and let it slip right through your fingers. Unfortunately, once you get past the age of braces and training bras, responsibility doesn’t go away. It can’t be avoided. Either someone makes us face it, or we suffer the consequences. And still, adulthood has its perks. I mean the shoes, the sex, the no parents anywhere telling you what to do. That’s pretty damn good.

Time has come TODAY!

There are days when you’re totally exhausted of responsibilities and tasks, I mean, seriously. Responsibility, it really does suck! Really, really sucks. And you’re not even accomplish it in a day, Oh God! Don’t know what to do???!

Last Friday I planned to get my renewed passport at DFA today (Tuesday) but unfortunately I don’t get it coz of that palpak na DFA. Haynaku noh! Kung alam ko lang sana 500 na lang yung binayad ko din a sana ako nag-express hmmp! Ayun , then I have no choice but to go home. While walking on my way back to the parking lot under the extreme heat of sun, just came to my mind all the time and pagod that we wasted…lalo na yung gas grabe! Yung auto pa naman ni peejo super lakas lumagok ng gas. On our way going home, we took NAIA road and super traffic lalong dumagdag sa ka-badtrippan ko haaay! And atlas! naging ok na din yung traffic, tapos pumasok kami ng bf until my boyfriend told me na he’ll treat me on a SPA somewhere in bf, parang ako…My mood quickly change! Haaaay! Sobrang saya ko talaga…We went to this Thai SPA in bf for relaxation and it was damn good, worth it. After we had our pampering hours, we headed to SEX ( Sinangag Ex.) for food-tripping and pigging out hahaha! After that we go home na kasi my class pa sya tomorrow. Super sarap talaga to have a loving boyfriend. Doing unexpected things just to cheer you up and not to forget to give you a wonderful day. Thanks Peejo! I love you so much!

nervous!

i'm starting to get a li'l nervous for my upcoming NCLEX...i know i have to be well-prepared of it, but maybe i don't want to fail it coz it's too expensive. Budget for the application exam, ticket trip to HK, for my food and lodging, haaay! I hope to take it once in my life not twice not thrice but, once. I want to step to the next level of my life and very much looking forward to it, i want to serve and save life of other people, i want to fulfill goals and dreams. so many things i like to do, but i can't move on without passing my stateboard. I want to save money for myself and for my family, i want to go to different place like belgium, london, paris, italygreat carribean, bahamas, hawaii, thailand, malaysia, vietnam Oh Gosh! all of'em are fucking perfect place for me...kelan kaya ko makakapunta sa mga place na yan. Kaya nga gusto ko na makapasa at magwork agad para mapuntahan ko na yan, i'm sure kapa nakapag-work na ko my dream will come true very soon coz my work is a high-paying job. hehehehe! Can't wait to take my exam and i wish i can make it one time. Anyway, thanks for this website it really helps me to cleanse my thoughts and my feelings. GOdspeed!

So here I am at starbucks trying to get my thoughts together as I look beside me a pretty little girl lost in her world: on her own not even scared, completely oblivious of the noise and the lights the mall has to offer. I observe her, she seems so at peace, her curly hair tangled slightly on the headset, her tiny hands trying to grope the whole optical mouse, her eyes bound helplessly on the screen as it happened: her character in Grand Theft Auto got busted. She slouched and sighed, glanced at my direction and gave me a look which seemed to say mind your own business lady and get a life... Well I am, for the most part, trying to get my life back.

I think I'm starting to get well, I just had the flu. 3 days of cough and colds. Mother Nature has her way of getting back at you, nice sense of humor that lady has. I guess she noticed that I have been in best shape (figuratively, that is) since I was in college so she decided to retaliate a bit. Though the 3 days was grueling in a cough-your-lung-out kind of way, i didn't feel one bit of regret having been sick. It opened my eyes to a lot of things.

I've been reviewing for almost 6 months and I'm starting to burnt-out. But there just comes a time in a person's life when you start to think of what you really want to do and how you want to do it, and think of the future for real. I know for sure everyone gets to that point, mine just came at a time clogged nose was inevitable.

So I'm trying to put my pieces back together, gather my thoughts, sew up every experience I have and summon all the courage I can get. I'm currently having a coffee while studying and be destructed by that little girl . But still, love to be a great nurse/ surgeon someday. I know i'd still love to do in 50 years time. The small girl glances back at me, small beads of sweat forming on her forehead. But this time I smile at her and say, "This time let's both try not to get busted."

review..review..review!

this is my life since February 12 to May 25 '07 from monday thru friday when i was in kaplan to review for my upcoming NCLEX sometimes still having hang-outs with friends to relax but it didn't work coz statebord is still what I'm thinking of, it's like, waste of time lumabas at wala kang karapatan mag-happy happy nakakakonsenya, applicable dito ang "time is gold" kaya eto naging buhay ko...

in the morning, I started to have my self-study in review center using all of their excellent resources at their library such as online computer review and a focused review test booklets. Grabe! I used to read Saunders Book and i can't believe it kasi naman di ako talaga mahilig magbasa but i need to, until now :s in the afternoon, everytime i'm sleepy I started to watch practical videos of nursing care. Oh my Gulay! Actually, Kaplan has an excellent resources but there are times that I'm demotivated to study because I'm alone, it's very hard talaga. Kahit anong ganda ng isang review center kung demotivated ka, it's useless! But fortunately, my courage for studying is here again. So I'm here again reviewing to pass my NCLEX for the next episode of my life. haaay! I'm sleepy na...Goodnight to y'all!